faces

These are just a few of the beautiful faces that I cannot go a day without thinking about. 

I pray for them often. 

I pray that they are being fed. 

I pray that they are able to continue school. 

I pray that they have clothes to wear to school. 

I pray that they get new shoes for the school year when theirs get to small. 

I pray that they get a hug from someone they love every day. 

I pray that they know how beautiful they are. 

I pray that they have someone to comfort them when they cry. 

I pray that they get medicine if they get sick. 

I pray that they sleep under their mosquito nets so they won't get malaria.

I pray that they never lose their infectious smiles or laughs.

I pray that they know that their auntie on the other side of the world loves them more than anything. 

Most of all, I pray that they know the love of their Savior. I pray that someone will take the time to invest in them and teach them about Jesus. I pray that they will understand and come to know the love that can only come from Jesus. 

At this point, I don't know what the Lord is going to do with my life. But I DO know this. That I love these kids and the thousands like them that are yearning for the love of the Lord. I pray that I will have the ability to show them personally the love of Christ.

But until then, I will be faithful. I will be faithful in this next step that the Lord has for me. I will glory in my Redeemer and pray for the day that my heart will be complete again with my kids.

Mysterious Ways

The Lord works in incredibly mysterious ways! I am still learning to trust Him in every step and believe that He is in control and knows what He is doing.

My life has totally changed in the last two months in ways I never expected. I never thought that I would have a chronic disease that has no cure. I did not expect to have to be on a medicine that could potentially do me more harm than good. And I definitely did not expect to be limited in the career that I feel so called to. However, just because I didn't expect it doesn't mean that it is not exactly what the Lord has planned for me. It doesn't mean that I was created any less in the image of my Savior than anyone else. It just means that I have a greater platform to declare God's love and goodness. I have the ability to show everyday with my life how great my God is and how heals and SO loves!

Crohn's disease is an autoimmune disease that affects anywhere in your digestive tract. Essentially my immune system is for some unknown reason, attacking my large and small intestine. It has caused me to have times where I get very sick (flu like symptoms) for days at a time. Because of this, I had to start on an immunosuppresant medication this past week. On Monday, I had my first dose of Humira (you've probably seen the commercial). It is an injection that I will give myself every other week. I am thankful that the Crohn's will be under control because of this medication. However, because it is an immunosuppressant, my immune system will be essentially obsolete. I will have to be very careful in my interactions with anyone who is sick. Which as you can imagine, is not ideal for a final semester nursing student.

I am slowly trying to understand what implications this new diagnosis and medication will have on my life. At this point, the doctor wants me to be on the medication for the foreseeable future. I am clueless as to how that will be compatible with what I believe the Lord is calling me to in my life. However, my life is not up to me to pilot. So, I am trusting my Savior. He has great plans for me and I know that He will see me through.

I am so thankful to be able to live this life for His glory. I will continue to live day by day and give Him the praise.

"When God calls a man, He will be with him in that work and he will succeed no matter what the obstacles may be." D.L. Moody